Trigag: DKMU Godform Cycle week four

It was the first day of DKMU godform cycle week with Trigag. The altar was set up in advance but I still hadn’t composed the incense for him. I had some work to do and I decided to get on with it but my laptop wouldn’t boot up. It seemed to get stuck in sleep mode, unable to shut down or wake up. At first I panicked.  It’s a fairly new piece of equipment that costed a nice sum of money and is essential to my work.  After few minutes of absolute terror and anxiety I managed to get  a grip on myself. ‘Hang on, didn’t I see this happen before?’ I thought to myself. ‘Ok Trigag, have it your way!’. Instead of working on other stuff I went to my herbs and spices drawer, pulled out all I had in there and began testing the ingredients.

I went through a similar process with each one of the spirits. I light up candles on the altar, did a short meditation to get a feel for the spirit and then proceeded to select and test different ingredients. Some would be rejected immediately, some would be selected and the rest put into the ‘maybe’ pile. Then I combine all sure choices and decide if I want to add anything else from the maybe pile. For Trigag I chose peat, labdanum and black pepper, a delightful combination!

After the incense was composed I burned some of it on the altar and I tried to boot up my laptop again. It did so with no further issues. Strange behaviour of electronic devices seemed to plague Trigag week but we didn’t worry about any of it again. It’s simply Trigag’s way of getting attention.

The first evening I perceived the energy and vibe of Trigag to be somewhat vampiric. I had images right out of Nosferatu flooding my mind. Another association that came up for me was the terror experienced when confronted with the unknown. I could not help but see the parallel with Ino. She seems to be the euphoric aspect of confronting the new while Trigag is the fear.

UFO Tarot: Ace of Cups

New ideas and excitement are often signs of the beginning of a new cycle.

Trigag turned out much less intimidating and unpleasant than I expected. My main take out from the week of working with him was to confront my own feelings and fears regarding the future. It’s natural and necessary to take care of your own survival and sometimes you do it at the cost of someone else’s happiness and well being. This somewhat crude and brutal truth stands in contrast to what our society preaches. It is also often used as an excuse for the abuse of power, greedy hoarding of wealth and exploitation. Each one of us has to find where the line between the two lies.

Automatic drawing

Scrying

Towards the end of our week with Trigag we decided to scry from the bowl of salted cuttlefish ink we kept on the altar. We placed it on a  silver brass tray and stared into the blackness. First I saw the bowl as a doorknob and a metallic hatch, then the nob tuned into a pipe or a tunnel. I tried to go in with my mind but before I did  the vision blurred and I saw the bowl on a  tray overflowing. It made me think of the black cancer from X files. Next the black swirled and turned into an ammonite. My thoughts drifted towards Ancient Egypt and Nile crocodiles. I also saw a group of cartoon seals like from the ‘Song of the Sea‘ animation we watched recently.

Black Triangle UFO

On the last evening we offered Trigag some Black Sambuca. During my meditation I had a vision of being taken inside of a giant black triangle ufo. Inside I found damp, humid and stale air and a maze of uniform looking corridors. I was followed by an invisible entity down a spiral staircase. At the bottom of it there was a black void, like a black whole swallowing everything. After arriving at its edge I looked to see the earth disappearing in the distance. I looked in terror and in wonder. The vision faded. When it did I noticed a spider running across the floor.

Ino: DKMU Godform Cycle week three

After a very intense week with Doombringer the time came to welcome Ino. Her energy proved very soothing and gentle but with a very sharp edge.

I constructed the altar in the morning and composed incense for her from white sandalwood, blue lotus, jasmine flowers and frankincense. After evoking her I sat in a meditation. I noticed a familiar strange shivery cold feeling creeping up my spine. It was very strong. I interpreted this as a sign of Ino’s presence. My mind became flooded with impressions and memories somewhat disjointed but connected through a thread of an invisible force. She revealed herself to me as the May Queen decorated with jasmine and other summer flowers. I received the impression of excitement and joy associated with new discovery. She invites us on a new journey.

What I noticed working with her the first evening as well as later is that she directed my attention inwards and towards my body.  Suddenly I could feel all the stiff parts that need a hot bath and some yoga. I could feel the inner tension both physically and psychologically. Becoming aware of it was distracting but also constructive. I was forced to work towards removing it, take some time for myself and just chill.

I didn’t get the conversational chatter from her like I did with Agent 663. She was more distant and subliminal. I took notice of a dream involving seals I had during her week.

Seals

I was on a cliff watching the see. Suddenly I noticed a whole family of seals with young pups coming to the shore. They hauled out onto a peer. I felt a strong connection to them, like usual when I dream or see them in real life. Then a noisy family parked their car on the roadside and began strolling towards the seals. Like a typical British family they seemed to behave like the whole world revolves around them. I approached them and confronted them about it, asking them to be more considerate and do not disturb the seals. The family wanted to see the seals but treated them like cartoon caricatures, not the wild sea beasts that they truly are. The father began asking me where I come from and behaving semi racist. I was able to deflect his dominance display and point to the practicality of sharing the space both with myself and the seals. Eventually the family listened and backed off.

The dream seemed to be a powerful cometary about immigration and my anxiety with  growth in xenophobia and racism. Speaking out in defence of minorities often results in being attacked and harassed but doing so can have positive results.

UFO Tarot: 7 of Disks and 4 of Swords

“Keeping the desire for knowledge alive means giving oneself the possibility of growth.”

“Serenity and wisdom are achieved by accepting destiny.”

Know Thyself

Even though most of my meditations with Ino were silent and calm I did feel her presence and vibe during the whole week very strongly. It seemed synchronistic and important that during my time with her I found out about Misophonia. I always recognised that my relationship to sound is different. Misophonia means ‘hatred of sound’ and it’s characterised by a mild to powerful flight or fight response to certain seemingly innocent sounds like typing on a keyboard or the crunching of popcorn. I experienced fits of absolute rage at my mum crunching apples when I was growing up. I could never understand why the sound was setting me off so badly. Everyone can get annoyed at noisy eaters occasionally but this was way beyond annoyed. I felt like I wanted to crush her skull with my naked hands.

All the writings about misophonia I came across focused on the negatives but I have a very rich and beautiful relationship to sound. I recorded an album with my indie band back in 2004 and I love doing sound recordings for my Glen Faramach project. The only time I managed to receive a first grade at university was when I was in charge of sound design for film or worked on an abstract documentary for radio.

I wonder if misophonia can have surprising side effects. Since I remember I always found the sound of pen on paper highly pleasurable  and listening to small sounds can put me in deep trance very quickly. I indulged in this during my meditations especially when Anton went to do his automatic drawings. It was a very interesting self exploration for me.

Automatic drawing.

I find the use of empty space in both 663 and Ino drawings interesting. It’s a great example how this technique can produce unique results.

After few days of silent meditation I did receive a very clear message. We decided to independently asked Ino for advice regarding our creative projects and how to get them to the point of being self-sustaining financially. I was surprised at what followed. It was a continuous, unbroken stream of automatic writing that filled 3 pages of my diary. The advice was comprehensive, detailed and very precise. It covered all the bases and gave me a very practical and down to earth run down of do’s and don’ts both personal and interpersonal. I will definitely follow up on that.

Overall my week with Ino felt like a small peak through an ajar door. She is clearly multifaceted  and has more to offer than one might initially suspect.  There is something really tough about her. Something disconcerting and uneasy. She definitely represents a side of magick I have been neglecting for various reasons, one that I need to reconnect  with.