Ellis: DKMU Godform Cycle week one

Myself and Anton started the DKMU Godform Cycle on 1st of March’17 with a large bonfire in our garden. We drew chalk sigils around the fire pit and spent a while staring at the flames and toasting bread with cheese. After we were done with the fire we came back inside and performed the evocation in front of our altar.

We performed evocation everyday for the next week and each day was slightly different. On the first night I did a tarot reading, the second night I received a telepathic message from Ellis, the third day I created a small red queen faery and watched it morph into shapes. We also did automatic drawing and towards the end Ellis told me about linking memories by visiting them and placing the sigil in them. Overall it was a very good week of magick and I feel that I got to know Ellis much better. To close the one week working we smoked the house with incense made of rose petals, dragon’s blood and saffron.

Tarot: the 5 of Swords from the Tarot of the trance deckThis card sent out a warning against allowing a conflict to escalate, seeing enemies around and choosing the most difficult path in life. It seems a timely message considering socio-political climate of 2017.

Message from Ellis

Ellis appeared to me very much as the Grandmother spider. I visualised her travelling through different reality tunnels, stretching her web across space time. She spoke to me about the importance of making and keeping connections alive.

Everything is connected. The magick web spins across the universe and beyond. Some get trapped by the web while others travel freely along its threads. There are those who spin and those who tear the web. Grandmother Spider knows them all! Those who spin are her children, those who tear are their food and nourishment. All must thrive!

Red Queen Faery

This faery was created on Friday. It was a gorgeous, warm day and we decided to do magick in front of our outdoor altar. Anton placed an LS stone in the centre, we burned incense and drank sangria enjoying the early spring sunshine.

I had an idea of creating an Ellis fetish using our cut hair from our Chelsea Manning ritual and some wool. I used needle felting to bring them together. It took me a few hours to make the shape and decorate it. As I did I was imagining this faery to stretch cobwebs with her wings wherever she goes.

I placed her on the altar for our evening meditation. The low light, flickering candles and sangria in my system brought the faery alive. She was morphing from one gorgeous female into another. Each with unique style and  personality but still recognisably Ellis. The forms I saw didn’t look like a faery at all, they were more like  photographs or realistic paintings. some looked like cartoon characters. It was pretty awesome to see her like that. Each incarnation radiated strength, confidence and was glamorous in its own way.

Automatic drawing

I did this towards the end of the Ellis week. The web seems to be populated with funny cartoony faces. Some really make me giggle, especially the little one in the centre.

Learning from the Victory

Following on from my article Magi for Chelsea Manning.

It has been nearly two months since president Obama commuted Chelsea Manning’s sentence. We did some very involved magick in the days preceding the commutation and this surely felt like a great victory for all of us in the Magi for Chelsea Manning group. Not only will she go free on the 17 May 2017 but her supporters managed to put together a welcome home fund to cover her expenses as she transitions from her life in prison. It was a piece of good magick. I hope it will always work so well!

I am writing this not only to celebrate our victory and Chelsea’s upcoming freedom but also to look back at our endeavours and to consider why they were successful. I never tried to work so hard on magickal activism before. The most political project I ever got involved in must be Operation Intruder. I found it incredibly fun to do collaborative magick and in my experience doings so often generates positive results.

Working together.

Setting up Magi for Chelsea Manning was definitely a good idea. Having other magicians contributing and collaborating with me was both empowering and motivating. Even if some group members seemed to only like and cheer the rest, their presence was providing much needed moral support. I have no doubt that  each out of  23 members contributed immensely to the success of the project.

Listening to criticism.

Another aspect that in my opinion helped was to take on board the feedback of magicians who decided not to take part. It’s very easy to take such refusals personally and become dismissive of the received critique. I am thinking in particular about the belief in the binding power of the oath and inevitability of punishment upon braking it. I found it so prevalent that I could not ignore it, even though I do not believe in it myself. It occurred to me that if so many people empower such notion then it must live within the collective unconscious and influence all of us. Understanding that we will all be involuntarily affected  led me to finding the solution. In a sense the magicians who refused to participate enriched and empowered the project too. I think that is amazing.

Single Minded Focus.

Completing long term magical workings requires discipline. This doesn’t have to mean a regular daily routine, such as in Abramelin and similar operations. It can mean concentrated bursts of intense, single minded practice dispersed overtime. I  found this much more effective. Having periods of rest and regeneration can really help to make sure that you are at the top of your form when the time is right.

Timing.

In the case of this project, timing was everything. Synchronising our ritual to the timing of external events was a very good strategy. It provided us with a good workable schedule and helped to empower the activists campaigning for Chelsea. Obama leaving office provided a window of opportunity that could not be missed. Working to a deadline made it easier to organize and motivate.

Anchor in reality

Doing activism alongside magick provided a much needed anchor in reality. Like with any other spell or intention, creating a pathway along which it can manifest is essential. In a sense, in this project activism facilitated magick. The social media campaign #HugsforChelsea could be considered a metasigil and participating in it definitely felt like a form of a meditative practice or mantra. Each new tweet or share was like another bead on the mala or a rosary taking us closer to victory. Another important anchor was writing letters to both Chelsea and to Obama. Creating a connection to both of them in real life allowed an easier influencing of the result.

Expertise

It occurred to me that taking on criticism of other magicians wouldn’t have led me to finding a solution unless I did all the research for my upcoming book “aimonic Essence”. Researching and working with Abramelin oil and related formulas meant that I knew of its  pagan origins and uses that it was put to. My knowledge of the ancient lore provided a solution to a problem that many magicians couldn’t find.

Brink of madness

Last, but certainly not lest, after doing the magick on behalf of Chelsea I am certain that what makes magick successful is putting all of yourself into it and letting yourself be transformed in the process.  Shaving my head for Chelsea was very challenging. I wasn’t sure if it wasn’t taking it too far. It felt like begin fanatical.  In last days of Obama’s presidency I could barely eat and had trouble sleeping. There is no denying that I got deeply emotionally involved. I even invoked Chelsea into myself.

Putting so much of myself into it was very risky psychologically. Realising how hard  the last months were for me despite our victory I dread to think of the consequences in case we were defeated. The failure could have meant being plunged much deeper into suicidal depression. This experience, like countless others, convinced me that if the magick doesn’t cause you to ask if you are going too far, you are most likely not going far enough. One might ask is the victory worth the risk? In the case of Magi for Chelsea Manning I have no doubt that it is.

I consider this project  a victory because Chelsea’s sentence has been commuted but this doesn’t change the fact that she is still in prison and will have to transition into 45’s new reality upon her release. Our pace at Magi for Chelsea Manning has slowed down but we are still doing protection for her and we are happy to welcome new supporters. It will help if you drop me a private message when you request the add since we had some alt-right nazis requesting to be added.

 

 

 

 

 

DKMU Godform cycle.

A few weeks ago, myself and Anton received a tarot reading from agent Idris ElSenussi . It had to do with our plan for a patreon project focusing on evocation. The reading was very detailed and very insightful. One of the things that Idris suggested to us during the consultation was to work with one of the DKMU godforms, the Red King. I never ignore such invitations especially when the person suggesting it seems so in tune with the kind of magick I like to do. Myself and Anton decided to get  a copy of The DKMU Egregores (Liber Ellis part 3.)  We figured it was the best way to learn more about the Red King.

The book arrived shortly and I was very pleasantly surprised with its easy layout and hands on instructions. We began reading through it and noticed that we are coming up to the anniversary of the workings mentioned in the book. After reading some of the book we decided to get on with it and prepare ourselves for performing the Godform Cycle.

We have employed LS in our magick before and incorporated it in our Operation Intruder workings. The Linking Sigil is now present on two of the KIA egregore dolls as well. We definitely established a strong connection. We also had an attempt at evocation of her early on.

Anton got  a bit better results than myself that time but we both felt that what we did in terms of evocation wasn’t good enough. Giving it a go again seemed like a fun thing to do. We figured that since we want to work with Ellis and Red king why not get to meet the whole lot!

As we went through the book we took notes and created a list of items we might want to use and of those we need and do not have. This included incense and accessories for our altar. It was very exciting to be preparing to do an extended magickal operation again, especially evocation. It has been a  year since I completed Abramelin and I feel it’s just about time to try something new. My last few months were very focused on helping Chelsea Manning which was a great experience but it meant  putting my evocation on hold and I missed it. It’s good to be back at it.

Magi For Chelsea Manning

bradley-chelseaChelsea Manning has been at the back of my mind for a very long time. We targeted her with the #opIntruder ‘you are not alone’ sigil at different points. Her presence had been growing stronger in my awareness, when last Summer I heard of her suicide attempt. I was just coming down from my Abramelin Operation. International events and politics weren’t at the forefront, even though I was seriously affected by them. I was still partly in a different world.

Since the operation my priorities changed. I began understanding the results coming from undergoing such process and wanting to implement them. I needed an intention, something to focus on. My personal situation might have been a logical priority but at the same time it didn’t interest me. Everything down here seemed a bit foggy and unreal for me. It lacked the sharp, clarity associated with the other world. I felt that my energy will be better spent elsewhere.

chelsea-manningWhen I read about Chelsea’s suicide I received a very clear message. One that stood out against the murky background of 2016. She needs help. She reached me in the here and now against all odds.

Book and letter

I decided to write to Chelsea Manning and buy her a book. The latter proved much simpler than the former.  It was a thin little copy of C.G.Jung’s ‘Undiscovered self’. One of my favourite writings on personal transformation. I recapped a few pages and found it very illustrative of Chelsea’ situation. It seemed possibly relevant to her. The contents are very political but weaved into a psychological narrative. It should be a very validating read for Chelsea.

jungI can’t remember how many times I started writing only to abandon and scrap my letter. I knew that the letter might be read by the prison staff before it gets to Chelsea. In theory everything I write could be passed on to whomever authorities find suitable. The thought of sharing my private life with Fort Leavenworth staff and possibly with the CIA and NSA definitely didn’t help. How can I communicate my message effectively in those strange circumstances, I kept asking myself.

I spend my life studying communication in its varied forms, from my degree in media to my recent exploration of Eriksonian Hypnosis. I remember reading somewhere in Crowley’s writings about attracting the attention of another person using Magick. I experimented with it on famous people during public events such as autograph signing or music concerts. Crowley considered it extremely hard to accomplish. I found it was easy but required strategy. You need to do and say something very different from what they hear usually. It might be  a trivial difference like using an obscure pseudonym or making sure your clothing stands out somehow. It’s remarkably effective. You aid it with a single minded focus and you are almost unstoppable.

dscf1616The techniques I worked with rely largely on visual cues such as body language. You have none of this in a  letter. In hypnosis you need a certain level of understanding between you and the other person. Writing to Chelsea was taking a blind shot.

After many failed attempts I finally felt like my writing began flowing. I described an experience of giving  a tarot reading to a stranger. As I did it I suddenly understood that this is what I need to do for her also. I proceeded to do a reading.

I asked for ‘The message that Chelsea needs to hear’. I drew a single card, Atu X, The Wheel of Fortune.  I interpreted the reading best I could and arranged the letter such that if she prefers she can easily skip it.

wheelWhen I was typing the words of the letter my intention was to create a pleasant and cheerful narrative describing some of my everyday life and weave into it some powerful messages that will affect her subconsciously. Before posting the letter I meditated with it to charge it with my magick, to make sure it gets to her. Once it was posted I felt a sense of accomplishment but no closure.  I waited for 6 weeks to see if the prison sends the letter back to me. I assume Chelsea received it after she was released from solitary confinement.

The group

Soon after sending the letter I  targeted The Fort Leavenworth and its staff with CE5 and Ontological Shock Sigils. I still felt it was not enough. Myself and Anton talked about engaging more agents in this. First we thought of it in terms of #OpIntruder specifically but we decided to keep it open.  Eventually we formed a Secret FB Group Magi for Chelsea Manning. Anton wrote an introduction but we didn’t advertise it right away.

leavenworth-prisonMy attention was brought back to Chelsea in November when a petition for clemency started circulating in my network. I decided it’s time to get magicians on board. There was a couple of vigils held in front of Fort Leavenworth, and the White House. It seemed a perfect opportunity to synchronise magick. We launched the group only a few days prior to the event and gathered a small number of interested supporters, some very enthusiastic, I might add.

Meanwhile some very strange events happened at Fort Leavenworth. I read a long statement released by Chelsea regarding her second suicide attempt, solitary confinement and strange intrusion into the prison of an unknown group posing as regular prison staff. These events were taking place shortly after I posted my letter. It seemed strange that the reading I did for her reached her afterwards. My message, whatever it was, would be delivered to Chelsea who tried to kill herself twice, not once.

The painting

I spent my day preparing the altar for a weekend of meditation and magick. I also did a painting based on Chelsea’s selfie. I painted her wearing  a crescent moon on her head with a star in the middle and an alien figure extending from it. The painting acts like a spell, to connect her to her Genius. Paining it was also a ritual during which I petitioned the Universe to help and grant my wish for Chelsea. When I finished I went outside to the garden, to get some fresh air.

dscf2065I looked at a cold November sky, covered with a thin layer of cloud, only a few stars  twinkling  faintly. The air seemed electrified and I felt a familiar clarity.  As I stood in anticipation a spectacular meteor fell from the sky. It originated right above me, at zenith and descended east leaving long trail like a flare. It was one of the three most amazing shooting stars I have ever seen. ‘This one is for you Chelsea’ I thought to myself. The Universe is listening!

 Chelsea

I spent Friday drafting my letter to president Obama in support of Chelsea’s plea to commute her sentence to time served.  I also pinned the petition in my browser to remind me to tweet it until it expires. Setting up an altar with a photograph of Chelsea felt really fun. I never did anything like it. I was thinking about the change she introduced into my life.

Before 2010, when Chelsea leaked the cables, I wasn’t very political. I didn’t see the point. I felt like a lonely traveller drifting through life, invisible to to others. Society seemed like a well oiled machine, a powerful system operated by human drone zombies. I had no chance to tackle something like that. Then, one of ‘the zombies’ turned out to be alive, feeling and thinking just like myself and she managed to do something incredible. I felt vindicated and empowered by that. I just didn’t realise how much at the time. Slowly, overtime, my sense of helplessness regarding politics and the economy gave way. Helping Chelsea seems like a natural thing to do.

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We incorporated into our altar LS and OpIntruder sigils, rainbow LGBT+Q hearts, Black Rats, the statue of my Daimon Axan and Anton’s pentacle. All sprinkled with colourful sequins. It felt like a party.

The vigils

We got up early morning on Satruday (2016-11-19) to meditate in front of our altar, directing protective, healing and liberating energy towards Chelsea. We had our morning coffee listening to Chelsea’s kiss and later the Amnesty International interview with Chelsea. We burned some Abramelin Incense and closed with Chelsea’s kiss again. We did the same on Sunday (2016-11-20). We synchronised these to vigils taking place at Fort Leavenworth and the White House. It was a very hopeful and heart warming experience. (We intend to repeat it on the 2016-12-17, Chelsea’s 29th birthday.)

dscf2078The sigil

During the weekend we also came up with a sigil to protect, strengthen and liberate Chelsea. This composite sigil includes two new sigils, a sigil for Chelsea Manning and another one to receive clemency. The base has a formed of a protection sigil received by one of the Operation Intruder agents. We also incorporated ‘you are not alone’ sigil in the middle top part and one strengthening OpIntruder magick in the middle bottom to complete the overall glyph.

dscf2218The absolution

As we were advertising Magi for Chelsea Manning we got a mixed response. Some magicians expressed the opinion that Chelsea brought the misery upon herself by braking an oath she has given and that nothing can be done. This perception was surprising to me but I took it on board. If some people believe in the significance of the oath then its worth addressing this. I have been researching Abramelin Oil and Incense for my upcoming book. It’s origins lie in antiquity dating as far back as ancient Mesopotamia. The Mesopotamians anointed themselves with oil whenever they signed a contract or swore an oath. They did the same to resolve one. The Greeks had a specific anointing ritual that could be performed in front of the temple to absolve themselves of guilt.

Chelsea Manning in her Amnesty International interview mentioned feeling guilty for the lives of civilians negatively impacted by mistakes committed by her department in Iraq. She might still feel that guilt. The ritual anointing would not only resolve the commitments she might have as a result of an oath but it can also be an opportunity for catharsis. Only I can not visit her in prison and anoint her!

dscf2194I made a small wax goddess figurine and carved Chelsea’s sigil onto it. In the evening, on the day I sent my letter to Barak Obama, I lit candles on my altar and anointed the statue with Abramelin Oil left over from my operation. I requested that Chelsea be absolved of guilt and free in body, mind and spirit. I asked for her pardon and clemency.

dscf2345By today the petition for her clemency collected enough signatures to grant a response from the White House.  It’s a long shot but we need to give her all we have got! She might just make it. I sincerely will it to be so. We will be boosting this magick during the upcoming weekend, especially on the 17th December. Lets see where it takes us.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Piołunówka

“The third angel sounded his trumpet, and a great star, blazing like a torch, fell from the sky on a third of the rivers and on the springs of water— the name of the star is Wormwood. A third of the waters turned bitter, and many people died from the waters that had become bitter.”

Revelation 8:10-11

dscf1706Wormwood (atremisisa absinthium) is perhaps most famous for its use in making Absinthe. It can be also brewed as a tea for digestion. However, I decided to grow it in order to make my own Piołunówka  for the Black Rat.

dscf1710I hand picked some of the young shoots and combined them with other fresh herbs and spices. I popped it all in a jar with some honey and filled it up with vodka.

dscf1722I wrapped the jar in a cloth and left it on top of a radiator for a full week. I picked it up once a day and gave it a good shake to speed up the maceration.

dscf1738After a week, the time came to taste it. I wasn’t sure if it was going to be good. Wormwood is extremely bitter and if the jar was left for too long my Piołunówka would prove undrinkable. I strained the liquid into  a bottle and had a sip. To my great satisfaction and relief it tastes wonderful!

dscf1787Since it turned out so good I figured I may as well make Black Rats! I added Black Sambuca and set them on fire.

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fresh herbs:

  • 10 Mint leafs
  • 5 Lemon balm leaves
  • 5 Borage flowers
  • 4 Wormwood shots (30grams)
  • 3 Nasturtium leaves
  • 2 Oregano springs

spices:

  • 8 Black Peppercorns
  • 5 Coriander seeds
  • 3 Cloves
  • 1 Star Anise
  • 1 Cardamon pod
  • 1 Dried Fennel umbel

other:

  • 10 Raisins
  • 3 Spoons of Honey
  • 1 Tea bag ( I used Ceylon tea)
  • 1 Litre of Vodka

Method:

Put honey in a sterilised jar and add a little bit of vodka.

Dissolve the honey by whisking the mixture with a spoon.

Place renaming ingredients and vodka in the jar, then close and wrap in a cloth.

Place in warmth for a week. Shake daily.

Strain ready Piołunówka in to a sterilised bottle.

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Power and Magic Anthology

Recently I came across the kickstarter for Power and Magic Anthology. It contains 15 comics about queer witches of color, created by 17 women, demigirls, and bigender people of color. This anthology is the kind of project I have been waiting for.  The occult community with its wide diversity of practitioners has produced many amazing books, stories and art. Although women constitute a large proportion of the magickal scene they often seem under-represented on occult podcasts, in magazines, books and other publications.

witch_featuredPeople who get interested in magick often do so because they are searching for alternative perspectives and ideas. In many cases they want to find a value system and lifestyle that can reflect their inner selves. Mainstream society being male dominated pushes aside people not conforming to the ideals of heterosexual masculinity. Even counter culture doesn’t escape this bias. Power and Magick Anthology gives space for LGBT witches to express themselves and tell their stories. I consider this very valuable and worth supporting.

LGBT issues take central stage in my life. Myself and my spouse both consider ourselves bisexual and of non binary gender. Many of my friends and family belong to the LGBT community and I suspect few more didn’t come out yet. Many of my LGBT friends also share interest in magick, witchcraft and the occult. I appreciate their knowledge and unique perspectives. I do so especially since so many magical groups focus on heteronormative narratives, rituals and beliefs. Some can even be openly hostile towards queer magicians, an attitude that most certainly needs to be challenged. It feels very encouraging to see a project that celebrates individuality for a change.

I also deeply appreciate having a chance to read stories from people of colour.  When I decided to emigrate to the U.K. I imagined making friends with people of different ethnicities, nationalities etc. It seems like an exciting opportunity to challenge the sheltered culture I was brought up in. After living here for 11 years I noticed with sadness that the vast majority of my friends are still white Europeans. I am not choosing  friends for their skin colour or birth place and yet the invisible wall exists somehow. Power and Magick Anthology certainly helps to breach it. It shows that  individuality and uniqueness have power to manifest and make an impact despite of the challenges.

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Moon(cake) Magick

I used to pay attention to the cycles of the moon but in recent years I fell out of the habit.  Celebrating the 8 festivals (Wheel of the Year) became more important to me. I began exploring Chaos Magic alternatives, linking the festivals to the 8 colours of magic. Doing so definitely added a breathe of fresh air to my magic. I can not stick to doing the same thing over and over too many times. I like change, innovation and creativity. I also realised that I miss something about playing with the moon even if all it means is having a dedicated glass of wine. I used to like the sense of timing and rhythm that came with it. I decided to rekindle my relationship with the Moon and September proved an excellent time to do it.

dscf1518In China and few other Asian countries people celebrate Mid-Autumn Festival around the time of the full moon each September. One of the main traditions is baking mooncakes and they became so strongly associated with the festival that many know it as Mooncake Festival.

dscf7187I tried them last year during the moon eclipse. I was passing through Bristol and visited my favourite Asian Supermarket late in August. The cakes were displayed together with paper lanterns and few other festive specialities. I bought couple and really enjoyed the  experience of celebrating an eclipse with them.

dscf7189Traditionally mooncakes have an egg yolk in the centre to symbolise the full moon. In addition to eating them  people  go outside to drink tea and watch the moonrise until they see the moons reflection in their teacups. They also light up lanterns, special fire structures and play games re-enacting different elements of the Legend of Chang’e and the Jade Rabbit.

Like many legends these stories seem pretty strange and have many alternative versions. I found some really good ones on youtube. The Legend of Chang’e tells a story about an Archer who shoot down 9 suns from the sky in order to save the earth from scouring heat they produced. In return for this he was offered an elixir  or a pill of immortality but his wife Chang’e drunk the elixir /ate the pill instead of him and she flew off to the moon where she still l lives.

Another associated story tells how the Jade Rabbit got its name and ended up living with Chang’e on the moon.

After baking the cakes myself and Anton decided to set up the altar. We chose a selection of moon cards from different tarot decks and combined them with a selection of seasonal magical object we like to take out of the cupboards this time of the year. We had just enough time to light up all the candles and lanterns before the moon began to rise.

dscf1520We raised a cup of ritual sake to honour the moon and admired its golden round shape travelling through the sky. The evening birdsong and scent of fresh garden herbs added to the magick. Soon we had bats flying over our heads and the chill of an autumn night chased us back inside where we could gorge ourselves on the lovely mooncakes.

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Mooncakes for two

Mooncakes are traditionally baked for Mid-Autumn Festival. You can find out about the folklore associated with them in my Moon(cake) Magick blog. They can be a great offering or celebratory snack for any moon related magic.  I improvised a recipe based on what I had in my kitchen at the time of baking. The proportions are perfect for 2 cakes.

dscf1502The filling:

  • tin of red kidney beans (200g)
  • 50g sugar
  • splash of coffee or water or anything
  • 2 eggs
  • 1tbs coconut butter (any butter will do)

The pastry:

  • 1/2 cup wholemeal flour (or plain flour)
  • 2tbs honey (or golden syrup)
  • 1tbs coconut butter (any butter will do)

Begin by making the pastry. Combine ingredients and knead until you get small ball of dough. Put this in the fridge and meanwhile prepare the filling.

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Strain the beans and pop them in the blender with the sugar and coffee/water. Once mashed transfer them onto a pan and heat stirring until mixture is thick enough to make a spoon stand. Take of the hob, add 1tbs coconut butter and mix in. Set aside to cool.

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Separate the yolks from the egg whites. Keep both. Hard boil the egg yolks. I used pouching pockets to do mine. I also sprinkled them with salt and a tiny bit of vinegar to add flavour. Once boiled the yolks really look like a moon!

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After around 45 minuted take your dough out of the fridge and divide in half. Heat oven up to 175C (350F) Roll each half thin and flat put a generous serving of bean paste in the middle, add egg yolk in the centre and fold the pastry over the top.

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Once sealed you would normally pop it in a special mould. I squeezed mine inside a cookie cutter and used few different cutters  to make a pattern at the top. Glaze it with egg whites. This will give your cakes a lovely glossy look. Bake them in the oven for around 20 minutes or until cakes are golden brown. Take out and leave to cool down.

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Holy Guardian Alien and the Conquering Child.

It has been nearly 3 months since I completed my Abramelin Operation. In the last weeks of it I began working on a sculpture representing my Daimon or Holy Guardian Alien as I  like to call them.  The representation, needless to say, is a frivolous attempt at channeling the inexpressible qualities of this entity. I feel that this has been achieved to a satisfactory degree. The idol became a centerpiece on my altar.

DSCF9790.resizedShortly after I completed the operation I had an alien related dream. In this dream I gave birth or had a baby taken out of my body. There was no pain involved in the birthing, just a strange discomfort. The baby was so tiny I could hold it in my hands. Someone presented it to me. The newborn was an alien-human hybrid, with beautiful almond eyes, dark skin and black hair put in bunches. The babe, although newly born, looked in some sense mature and wise. A superior intelligence seemed to radiate from her. All this is absolutely typical of the accounts given by people taken by the alien creatures. As I looked at the baby in surprise and astonishment I was rationalizing its origins. I wasn’t pregnant so were did it come from? If it was inside me then I must have been carrying it during my operation. It is theretofore a child of my Abramelin. I was certain of this.

The dream left a lasting impression on me and I felt inspired to create a sculpture representing it. As I created it I could not help but think of the rich symbolism of the baby in mysticism and and magic. The alien connection further convinces me of the shamanic nature of the contact experience. Perhaps the alien-human hybrid represents the Conquering Child of the New Aeon, our consciousness being born on a new level. The result of our magick.

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Bending Abramelin rules.

When working with an old text such as The Book of Abramelin it seems wise to make some adaptations based on modern lifestyle. I find it appropriate to discuss my own interpretation of the suggested process at this stage.  I read a lot of interesting accounts and advise from other practitioners who did the operation and were happy to share their own experiences and insights. I took some of it on board but not all just like with the book itself. I am going to discuss in what way I did not follow the book and advice of others regarding the operation.

  1. The Oath. It is suggested that the practitioner swears an oath to complete the operation. I have followed this when I did Liber Astarte and concluded it unnecessary. My understanding is that the oath helps to motivate the individual. I do not need any additional motivations beyond the will to do it. If life circumstances would prevent me from completing the operation I will come back to it as soon as I can.
  2. Fixed duration. It has been suggested to choose a length of time and stick to it. I departed from this rule. I prefer flexible approach where I might aim at  a given length (6 months) but see how it goes. I do not see a reason for each stage of the operation to take equal length of time. I will progress onto the next stage when I feel ready. I have a lot of self discipline and motivation and do not need restrain to keep them up.
  3. Fixed time for daily ritual. The book suggest to do the prayer/orison/meditation at dawn and sunset. This was probably in tune with people lifestyles at the time of its writing. Modern magicians have suggested picking up a certain time, morning and evening and sticking to them with no exceptions. I do them when I get up, after my morning coffee any time between morning up to early afternoon. The second rite falls anywhere between late afternoon and midnight. I find this much easier to manage.
  4. Confession of sins. I had no need for a formal confession kneeling in front of an altar. I consider such thing too loaded with needless religious overtones. However I do spend fair bit of time on introspection. The whole process requires constant questioning of ones own motives and actions. Being absolutely honest with myself seems to come naturally during this operation. As I mentioned in All Seeing Eyes, there seems to be an intelligence at work that gently but pressingly sheds light on repressed and hidden issues. Nowhere to hide.
  5. Having female body. The book suggests women shouldn’t do this operation and instruct men to avoid them when they menstruate. The only difficulty I experienced because of my body is menstrual pain. Its severity forces me to take codeine for 3 days and I find its effects hindering my meditations. It seems a mild inconvenience and not something to worry about.
  6. Drugs and alcohol. The book clearly says to abstain from getting drunk. It doesn’t mention drugs but many interpret the alcohol rule extending to all mind altering substances. If someone has a habit they are not willing to give up for the duration of this operation I would suggest reconsidering the attempt. I definitely feel that substances causing numbness such as codeine and alcohol have a negative impact on my concentration and prefer to avoid them. I also avoid alcohol in social situations. I do have a very small glass of white wine during my evening Sabbath ritual. I intend to keep it that way at least for now. Apart from this, abstinence seems to be a nice experience. My position on other types of drugs seems ambivalent. Anything taken medicinally seems fine to me. I trust my Holy Guardian Angel to guide me on this. I definitely feel that excess of any kind of substance would  not be recommended and generally speaking keeping a clear head is a good idea. Doing so gives a unique opportunity to see how high you can get without drugs.

I might get few rotten tomatoes frown my way for saying all this but it seems fair to share my method honestly. Although my roots are strongly in Thelema I come at this practice from a Chaos Magick perspective. If my attitude leads to failure I will not be afraid to admit it. I do this for myself and not for the prestige and glamour some attach to Abramelin operation.

Generally I trust my relationship with HGA and see following their advice more important than sticking to arbitrary rules. Something I got out from a probationary period in Lectorium Rosicrucianum is the understanding that initiation happens to a certain extent by itself. I am not intending to fake my progress by rigorously adhering to rules. I let my own attitude guide me as to my progress. If I struggle with something then perhaps I need a little bit more time to process it. So far this seems to work for me.

The operation definitely has its own gravity and its own mind. I feel myself being pulled into it like one might be into a psychedelic trip. Meditations become longer and more involved. At this point I feel more comfortable doing up to two hour sessions, very rarely doing less than an hour. The need for solitude, introversion and study arises by itself and discipline becomes almost not necessary. I look forward to my meditations and time focusing on Axan (my HGA). It feels great.

My altar after Sabbath evening meditation.

My altar after Sabbath evening meditation.